Breathe

Had my first major meltdown today...a full blown panic attack.  I've never ever had one - and - it - sucked!  I couldn't breathe, my chest hurt, I could not stop crying, I knew something was going on, I knew i had to slow my breathing down but I could not do it.  I called my friend, she tried to help me...but i couldn't tell her what my triggers were.  I mean there was just so many little things that happened today that any little thing could have probably set me over the edge.  I did tell Daddy what happened,  I wans't going to but I knew i had to be forth coming with him.  It was understanding and thankful I knew what was happening and to call a friend for help.  What a crazy mess.  I don't want to have another panic attack...but dang it...I'm sure there will be more to come.  So I just need to be aware that things are going to happen and I need to breathe.